Even though I won't post this for several weeks, I want to remember how I feel right now. Excited, scared, happy, nervous, emotional and everything in between. I found out I was pregnant yesterday morning (March 22nd) and honestly, it's a much different feeling than the first time around.
After Avery was born, it was a huge change in the lifestyle that Travis and I were used to, and for the first 18 months of her life, we were pretty sure she'd be an only child. We obviously love Avery, but we were in no way prepared for the lack of sleep in the beginning, the struggles we had with her allergies and my breastfeeding, and how having a baby changed our family dynamic. I know we're not the only ones that struggled in the beginning, but sometimes it felt that way! Everyone was so happy for us and was like "aren't kids great," and we were like "sure" (but really thinking they were so much work and responsibility!!) Of course, I did cherish the special moments, but sometimes they felt few and far between...
Around Avery's first birthday I finally figured out how to be a stay-at-home mom - one that could handle taking care of Avery, doing housework, and cooking meals. I know it's cliché, but honestly staying home has been much more challenging for me than working ever was. It took me almost a year to start enjoying and stop stressing. With that being said, it's also been very rewarding, and I can see the difference it's made for Avery and I love spending my days with her.
Anyway, I decided I might want one more child around the time Avery was 18 months. We went on a great trip to Hilton Head, and I loved watching her experience the ocean, the beach, and the pool. She started becoming more independent and I realized she won't be my baby forever. When Travis and I talked about having another one for the first time, I threw him off because he was under the impression that we were "one and done." I didn't pressure him though (at least too much) because I never wanted to make this decision without the support of my husband.
In January, he brought it up to me again, and said he was ready to think about having another child. We know the sacrifice that the first year will be (just because neither of us are "baby" people) but we can see the person that Avery is becoming, and how much fun she is, and we both had always wanted two kids (before we had any.)
I started taking prenatal vitamins and stopped birth control at the end of January and now I'm pregnant! It happened much quicker than the first time around, so I think that's also why I'm still in a state of shock. However, I'm also very happy that we will be a family of four (plus Ranger.)
Since finding out yesterday, I am totally feeling pregnant. I know it has to be all mental, because last time around I didn't even know at this point, but I think I know how I'm going to feel and honestly, I feel bloated and many of the early pregnancy symptoms. I went for a 3 mile run yesterday, and today, and both of them were tiring. I clearly ran a 15k only a week ago, so obviously I'm just crazy at this point, but who knows!
Anyway, I'm very excited, and I plan on giving weekly updates, so get ready!!
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